Today was the last meeting for BBCO. Ironically, the scene of crying tears, people hugging each other, talking to people for hours and hours, crying non-stop for hours, saying reluctant goodbyes, did not happen. But what I saw today was totally opposite. We had a meeting, everyone sat in a circle, teachers talk, when they finish, we all talk, one by one. After that we had a "game". Behind everyone was attached with a A4 size orange paper. We all walk around writing on people's paper. Done this before in camps. Way cool. Then we had buffet, from 12 onwards. We ate happily, took lots and lots of pictures, laughed, joked, smiled. Everyone was happy, but i know, deep down, everyone is sad. But we do not show it, we want to have more happy memories. After which, the boys, about 11 of us, went to play basketball. Despite my injured leg, we play like for 2 hours plus. Best game i've ever had, so much fun, so much laughter, so much more..
After that went home to bathe then went to Vivian's house to slack and have dinner. Went back home at 9 and met David and Wei Lun for awhile and chatted for around one hour. But enough about that..
Thank you BBCO once again, for those wonderful memories, for all these times, for the past 3 years, for the sour sweet bitter hot times, for everything we've been through.
Thank you for the sweet comments, thank you everyone.
Thank you Vivian, Dave and Wen Yi for the card.
Thank Dave and Wen Yi once again for the present.
Thank you everyone! I love you all. (:
I'm feeling happy.
I'm feeling contended.
I'm feeling sad.
I'm feeling.. contradicting.
Get it?
I thought that i'll never see you again.
But it seems like we're staying afterall.
♥ Music is love.
11:01 PM Sunday, August 31, 2008
sundays.
only way.
It seems that they only way to avoid all my problems, my stress, my sadness, is basketball. Fractured my leg abit, think knee out of position by a little bit. But nvm. Playing basketball makes me feel occupied, staying at home sucks. I need to go out, cut loose. Put on a fake front, try to forget. But i cant. I just cant.
First grand concert, Last concert.
Can we not split? Please?
and every night i lay awake in bed,
with tears in my eyes,
trying to sleep for hours but i can't,
and i realise it's morning already.
let me see you smile.
just one last time.
even if it's just one second.
i don't wish to say goodbye.
♥ Music is love.
12:37 AM Thursday, August 28, 2008
First grand concert, Last concert.
Can we not split? Please?
and every night i lay awake in bed,
with tears in my eyes,
trying to sleep for hours but i can't,
and i realise it's morning already.
let me see you smile.
just one last time.
even if it's just one second.
i don't wish to say goodbye.
♥ Music is love.
12:37 AM Thursday, August 28, 2008
and as if this isn't enough.
One after another. Sometimes i wonder why adults act so irrationally? Act before thinking, act before thinking. but i don't see that in adults. They act with their own thinking, never seeking their children's views. They always think that they are right. They tell you to shut up when you want to say something. They act without telling you. They expect you to keep up, they don't expect you to give comments, they expect you just to follow. But what if you're torn between two sides, which side will you go? Both situations are the same, why can't it be like before? Where everything i knew and everything i loved are together. This sucks, one after another. Get off my head, get off my life, get off.
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
♥ Music is love.
7:12 PM Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
♥ Music is love.
7:12 PM Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Parting of the ways.
Parting of the ways. People say that good things must come to an end. Why? Is it a must? Is it a law? Why can't good things continue and let us to enjoy? Why must we part? Why? Alot of Whys, but no answers. I know it's impossible for us not to part now. Have been thinking alot since yesterday. No answers found yet. 24th August 2008 was the day i dreaded to come. It is now over. People say you have overcome it to be stronger, but it seems like i have not. Next week debrief. What will happen? What will become of us?
I've been in BBCO since Secondary 3. I recall not being very close with them yet, not till end of Sec 3. We all are from different schools, but we all have a common thing, we love CO. We have the passion, we practice, we play, we have fun, we face problems. Must it come to an end? Maybe this is just a building block in our lives. I believe everyone will feel the same. I really am not good with words. I don't know what to say anymore.
What will happen to my Sundays? What will happen to the rest of the BBCO people? Feelings in a mix. Why didn't i feel this way when i graduated from CCKSSCO? Is it because of the people, of the environment? But it's the same, the feeling, the passion. Once again, Why? Maybe it's because of one person. Perhaps.
Would things have been different if we maintained a good standard? Will we still be together, and not parted?
24th August 2008, two scars left on my heart. Perhaps more will come.
I have to face this, next Sunday, and perhaps a last Sunday.
♥ Music is love.
12:37 AM
I've been in BBCO since Secondary 3. I recall not being very close with them yet, not till end of Sec 3. We all are from different schools, but we all have a common thing, we love CO. We have the passion, we practice, we play, we have fun, we face problems. Must it come to an end? Maybe this is just a building block in our lives. I believe everyone will feel the same. I really am not good with words. I don't know what to say anymore.
What will happen to my Sundays? What will happen to the rest of the BBCO people? Feelings in a mix. Why didn't i feel this way when i graduated from CCKSSCO? Is it because of the people, of the environment? But it's the same, the feeling, the passion. Once again, Why? Maybe it's because of one person. Perhaps.
Would things have been different if we maintained a good standard? Will we still be together, and not parted?
24th August 2008, two scars left on my heart. Perhaps more will come.
I have to face this, next Sunday, and perhaps a last Sunday.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Whoa-oh-o-oh
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Whoa-o-o-whoa-oh
And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
Labels: Goodbye.
♥ Music is love.
12:37 AM
BBCO Concert Success!
Yes! Yesterday was BBCO's last concert. Well done i must say. Alot of songs that we played are first time played in Singapore. Yayness. Yesterday was a day of horror and anxiety and nervousness and anxiousness and shockness ans busy-ness and everything! But we were there and gone through everything.
Thank you DMAT-ers for coming to my concert.
Thank you SP for the support and the flower.
Thank you Rui Ping for the flower.
Thank you BBCO, for these many years, for those wonderful memories, for those special moments, for those fun and laughter, for those scoldings that we had, for all the fun, joy, unhappiness that we all shared, for those practices that we had, for those outings that we had, for everything we had.
Next sunday is the last week, for debrief. I wonder what will happen. I picture a crying scene, everyone crying and hugging each other.
I wonder what will happen to Sunday now, I wake up early in the morning to find that there's no more BBCO. Emptiness? Sad? I'll miss you guys, definitely.
I wonder when is the next time i will see her again.
♥ Music is love.
11:10 AM Monday, August 25, 2008
Thank you DMAT-ers for coming to my concert.
Thank you SP for the support and the flower.
Thank you Rui Ping for the flower.
Thank you BBCO, for these many years, for those wonderful memories, for those special moments, for those fun and laughter, for those scoldings that we had, for all the fun, joy, unhappiness that we all shared, for those practices that we had, for those outings that we had, for everything we had.
Next sunday is the last week, for debrief. I wonder what will happen. I picture a crying scene, everyone crying and hugging each other.
I wonder what will happen to Sunday now, I wake up early in the morning to find that there's no more BBCO. Emptiness? Sad? I'll miss you guys, definitely.
I wonder when is the next time i will see her again.
♥ Music is love.
11:10 AM Monday, August 25, 2008
shagness.
the past two days was very tiring.
yesterday morning went swimming with dad, haven't been swimming for 3 or 4 years? was exhausted. den afternoon went to play badminton and basketball with wendy, doreen and elliot at clementi cc. played from like 1230 to 430. den come back at night go down for bball training.. damn tired. planned to go out with peixiu, jasmine, cladys, ryan keith today but overslept for like 4 hours.. sorry guys. i think i was overly exhausted. planned to meet at 11, so i put alarm at 930, but woke up at 130pm instead.. >< i think i'm really a pig.
today was also another shitty day, afternoon went to trim my hair. came back home after 15mins, my mum asked me if i cut already, how come like no difference. i said only trim what. scolded me till like shit say waste her money... i'll rather not cut then. den headed for co at 5pm. carried practically everything down from 3rd level to 1st level, where the stage is. tired out..
tmrw have to reach bbco at 430 to carry instruments again part 2.. shit man. these few days gonna be hell. have to endure. 1 day down.. 3 more days to go. wont be updating these few days, after concert then update. tata.
♥ Music is love.
11:47 PM Thursday, August 21, 2008
yesterday morning went swimming with dad, haven't been swimming for 3 or 4 years? was exhausted. den afternoon went to play badminton and basketball with wendy, doreen and elliot at clementi cc. played from like 1230 to 430. den come back at night go down for bball training.. damn tired. planned to go out with peixiu, jasmine, cladys, ryan keith today but overslept for like 4 hours.. sorry guys. i think i was overly exhausted. planned to meet at 11, so i put alarm at 930, but woke up at 130pm instead.. >< i think i'm really a pig.
today was also another shitty day, afternoon went to trim my hair. came back home after 15mins, my mum asked me if i cut already, how come like no difference. i said only trim what. scolded me till like shit say waste her money... i'll rather not cut then. den headed for co at 5pm. carried practically everything down from 3rd level to 1st level, where the stage is. tired out..
tmrw have to reach bbco at 430 to carry instruments again part 2.. shit man. these few days gonna be hell. have to endure. 1 day down.. 3 more days to go. wont be updating these few days, after concert then update. tata.
Yesterday was hell,
But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all i ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again
♥ Music is love.
11:47 PM Thursday, August 21, 2008
holidays.
heh. officially holidays! today was a great(?) day. maths test in the morning, ended at near 12noon. den mismatch went to jam, not bad not bad, at least can play one song. yayness. and i learned only today. hahas. more jamming sessions! rocks x290314721654. and so after that headed with keith, ryan, bestfriend, daniel and chuchu to marina. but daniel, chuchu and bestfriend went home after HMV-ing. hahas. HMV was fun! they put a xbox360 there and got guitar hero. hahas. coolness. den headed with keith and ryan to marina arcade to find the rest of the peeps, elliot, mich, doreen, wendy, peixiu, jasmine, jon, gerald and vincent. played for awhile, sega rally is damn exciting, but still, outrun is more fun, right keith? hahas. cant wait for chalet next. today 50bucks gone! 22bucks for shuyue's concert, 25bucks for chalet, tmrw cant go out le. no money left. watched meet dave, quite funny, but you'll expect something more funny if it's eddie murphy, so i rate 3.5/5 only. wasn't having the holiday mood this morning, but after the show, like suddenly came, got the holiday mood alr. hahas. and im freaking tired now. maybe i should go sleep.. or not, since it's holidays. hahas. i wanna work work work, boss pls call me asap. hahas.
special credits :
dedicated to elliot shifu in maths! hahas. thanks for helping me and the rest of the dmat-ers in maths! :D
heh, im not like ryan, im not good with words. i just wanna thank all those that helped me in one way or another :D
and i got B+ for must, improved by one whole grade. yayness.
and to end off,
♥ Music is love.
12:27 AM Tuesday, August 19, 2008
special credits :
dedicated to elliot shifu in maths! hahas. thanks for helping me and the rest of the dmat-ers in maths! :D
heh, im not like ryan, im not good with words. i just wanna thank all those that helped me in one way or another :D
and i got B+ for must, improved by one whole grade. yayness.
and to end off,
I beg to dream and differ,
From the hollow lies,
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On Holiday
♥ Music is love.
12:27 AM Tuesday, August 19, 2008
maths.
so basically, today and tmrw is maths day. studied maths the whole day and is still sucky at it. tmrw got bbco, gotta go if not i will die. den after that study maths again. ok i am damn tired. this is the like the shortest post ever. nights everyone.
Hana wa sakura kimi wa utsukushi
Haru no komorebi kimi no hohoemi
Huyu ga owari yuki ga tokete
Kimi no kokoro ni haru ga maikomu
♥ Music is love.
1:07 AM Sunday, August 17, 2008
Hana wa sakura kimi wa utsukushi
Haru no komorebi kimi no hohoemi
Huyu ga owari yuki ga tokete
Kimi no kokoro ni haru ga maikomu
♥ Music is love.
1:07 AM Sunday, August 17, 2008
alot down, one to go.
AND YES. FRIDAY IS OVER. GOGOGO DMAT-ERS. ONE MORE MATHS TO GO. MONDAY. AND WE'LL BE FREED ON 11.30AM. WOOOTS.
and so we decided to chill out for awhile before starting on maths.. so me, keith, jon, ryan, yinghao, peixiu, jasmine and cladys went to vivo for dinner at food republic. den ryan left first, due to his orchestra* practice. DEN WE HAD BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM. HAHAS. TOOO BAD RYAN. LOL. jk. and here the icecream, 7 scoops, 3.50 bucks each. hahas.
merlionster rocks!
then we went to toys r us! LOL. we got no childhood sia. hahas. and me and jon were whacking each other on our heads with the hammer. hahas. let the pictures do the talking.
Jon : "hey dude, check out my new buddy. It's called Bear."
Bear : "get your hands off my tummy dude... before you die by my paws."
YINGHAO IS SO CUTE. HAHAS.
jon : "hi, im red spiderman, you're black."
yinghao : "hi, you racist spiderman." LOL
and that's all for today. :D
honno sukoshi wakari aeta goro
sonna yorokobi kanji teiru
I will love you.
♥ Music is love.
12:07 AM Saturday, August 16, 2008
and so we decided to chill out for awhile before starting on maths.. so me, keith, jon, ryan, yinghao, peixiu, jasmine and cladys went to vivo for dinner at food republic. den ryan left first, due to his orchestra* practice. DEN WE HAD BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM. HAHAS. TOOO BAD RYAN. LOL. jk. and here the icecream, 7 scoops, 3.50 bucks each. hahas.
merlionster rocks!
then we went to toys r us! LOL. we got no childhood sia. hahas. and me and jon were whacking each other on our heads with the hammer. hahas. let the pictures do the talking.
Jon : "hey dude, check out my new buddy. It's called Bear."
Bear : "get your hands off my tummy dude... before you die by my paws."
YINGHAO IS SO CUTE. HAHAS.
jon : "hi, im red spiderman, you're black."
yinghao : "hi, you racist spiderman." LOL
and that's all for today. :D
honno sukoshi wakari aeta goro
sonna yorokobi kanji teiru
I will love you.
♥ Music is love.
12:07 AM Saturday, August 16, 2008
hectic week.
first of all.. HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY TO DPG! :D:D
howdy dudes. so REMT presentation was okay, given that fact that I finished 15,30,60,90secs in two days. Yayness. And now practicing keys likes thr's no tmrw. Scales and appregios, scales and appregios. AND I am still sleepy even after two hours of rest which is obviously not enough! And so tmrw will be another day of mugging of music theory, which is, by far, my worst module. and thurs having no tests but still got MIDI assignments and friday consists of the worst nightware of all, keys test part 2, chords and test piece and Ear Training DoReMeFaSoLaTiDo ARGH. Singing infront of a teacher one to one is something that i have never experienced except for the time in primary school where i sang a song infront of my class with the teacher as accompaniment. AND THE FINAL TEST ON MONDAY WILL BE MATHS TEST. ok enough about studies.
i have tons of pics to upload. but i got more tons of laziness inside of me which doesn't allow me to upload. so i will be wordy wordy wordy woodypecker *tocktocktock* ok sorry for side-tracking. so last saturday was national day and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE and most importanly, it was keith's birthday too! national day baby. hahas. so we, me, keith, amelia, ryan, elliot, peixiu and jasmine, went to eat seoul garden to eat for three hours. ACTUALLY we only ate for one and a half hour BUT stayed for 3 hours cause JASMINE has such a huge stomach which we cannot dechipher, differentiate, integrate HOW COME she can eat so much. a picture says a thousand words, here are 5000 words coming right up.
jasmine : hehheh.. you all weaklings. FEAR ME OF MY EATING POWER. *gives ahlian sitting position*
hehheh.. now you know my prowess. *leg still up*
peixiu : *dead*
jasmine : eh keith dun waste your ice kachang lei!! come come i help you finish.. ^^ *notice the leg. LOL*
ryan : i wanna die.. kill me please.
amelia : i help you.. I KILL YOU!
ryan : *dead*
amelia : NONO IT WASNT ME!! ><
SO... after 5000 words essay.. GOODBYE AND HAVE A "NICE" WEEK.
and every, everything isn't only.
what it seemed so hold this
words that you never told me
it's time to say goodbye
it's time to say goodbye
it's time to say goodbye
goodbye..
♥ Music is love.
8:23 PM Monday, August 11, 2008
howdy dudes. so REMT presentation was okay, given that fact that I finished 15,30,60,90secs in two days. Yayness. And now practicing keys likes thr's no tmrw. Scales and appregios, scales and appregios. AND I am still sleepy even after two hours of rest which is obviously not enough! And so tmrw will be another day of mugging of music theory, which is, by far, my worst module. and thurs having no tests but still got MIDI assignments and friday consists of the worst nightware of all, keys test part 2, chords and test piece and Ear Training DoReMeFaSoLaTiDo ARGH. Singing infront of a teacher one to one is something that i have never experienced except for the time in primary school where i sang a song infront of my class with the teacher as accompaniment. AND THE FINAL TEST ON MONDAY WILL BE MATHS TEST. ok enough about studies.
i have tons of pics to upload. but i got more tons of laziness inside of me which doesn't allow me to upload. so i will be wordy wordy wordy woodypecker *tocktocktock* ok sorry for side-tracking. so last saturday was national day and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE and most importanly, it was keith's birthday too! national day baby. hahas. so we, me, keith, amelia, ryan, elliot, peixiu and jasmine, went to eat seoul garden to eat for three hours. ACTUALLY we only ate for one and a half hour BUT stayed for 3 hours cause JASMINE has such a huge stomach which we cannot dechipher, differentiate, integrate HOW COME she can eat so much. a picture says a thousand words, here are 5000 words coming right up.
jasmine : hehheh.. you all weaklings. FEAR ME OF MY EATING POWER. *gives ahlian sitting position*
hehheh.. now you know my prowess. *leg still up*
peixiu : *dead*
jasmine : eh keith dun waste your ice kachang lei!! come come i help you finish.. ^^ *notice the leg. LOL*
ryan : i wanna die.. kill me please.
amelia : i help you.. I KILL YOU!
ryan : *dead*
amelia : NONO IT WASNT ME!! ><
SO... after 5000 words essay.. GOODBYE AND HAVE A "NICE" WEEK.
and every, everything isn't only.
what it seemed so hold this
words that you never told me
it's time to say goodbye
it's time to say goodbye
it's time to say goodbye
goodbye..
♥ Music is love.
8:23 PM Monday, August 11, 2008
dmat.
and i've just saw the finals of DMIT SParks, which was quite unorganized. how can they group the solo contestants with the group contestants? that is just not fair.. in fact, it should'nt be this way. out of the 6 groups, 5 were from DMAT. but ironically, the zhao xia guy who keep zhao xia all the way won the talentime and some "rock" band won second place, no offence to the players, only to the singer. those of there who went shld knw. lols. and so, it was really really biased as votes was 50% and judges score was also 50% which means to say that guy won via more votes which was totally biased and although the emcees were trying to do a good job, they're still not-up-to-standard yet. and all these negative comments must come to an end. bye.
♥ Music is love.
12:36 AM Friday, August 8, 2008
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive, they keep me in tune
Oh, look what I‘m holding here in my fire, This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You’re so hypnotic on my heart
♥ Music is love.
12:36 AM Friday, August 8, 2008
congrats.
congrats on my 100th post! after dunno how many months.. hahas.
so IDEAS is finally over! and midi.. i got C for my test. disappointed. but kinda deserved it, cause i didn't study at all. ): but anyway it's over alr. now it's all up to my assignments. finishing up strong chords now, tmrw starting new one. looks like music theory is being delayed again. oh well. gonna do work now. ciaos!
♥ Music is love.
10:21 PM Wednesday, August 6, 2008
so IDEAS is finally over! and midi.. i got C for my test. disappointed. but kinda deserved it, cause i didn't study at all. ): but anyway it's over alr. now it's all up to my assignments. finishing up strong chords now, tmrw starting new one. looks like music theory is being delayed again. oh well. gonna do work now. ciaos!
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
♥ Music is love.
10:21 PM Wednesday, August 6, 2008
so...
and i'm here to blog again.. for one reason only.
Please go to Joanne's blog under cliques sections and listen to the song.. She self-proclaimed very nice then forced me to advertise her blog too. LOL. Kidding. But it's really nice. But not as nice as 半情歌. HAHAS! okok. it's really nice too. -.-
♥ Music is love.
8:06 PM Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Please go to Joanne's blog under cliques sections and listen to the song.. She self-proclaimed very nice then forced me to advertise her blog too. LOL. Kidding. But it's really nice. But not as nice as 半情歌. HAHAS! okok. it's really nice too. -.-
♥ Music is love.
8:06 PM Tuesday, August 5, 2008
sickness.
i suddenly fell ill on friday during ET. basically spent the whole weekend sleeping, waking up, eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, medicine, sleep. lols. didnt get anything done. damn. den today and yesterday woke up with a headache. went for afternoon REMT class yesterday. totally different ambient. damn quiet sia. hahas. den today was late for 20 mins for keys =/ but she wasn't angry. haha. music theory was damn fun! play game sia. hahas. den.. went to eat at fc6. went home on mrt with gwee, saw him at fc6 again. hahas. and i think im gonna go sleep for awhile first. tata! oh and and please go michelle's blog under DMAT. the song is damn nice. byes (:
你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著 一半的歌
♥ Music is love.
2:14 PM
你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的总是未完成的
我只能唱著 一半的歌
♥ Music is love.
2:14 PM