studies.
i guess it's been hectic since the first day of school. teachers and seniors keep saying that last minute work is useless, you have to be consistent and not be lazy. but.. i have not started revising consistently? it's so tiring. i guess i really have to study now and have a no-life life and start to be a bookworm.. or rather, call me a nerd.
health.
same too? been jogging and playing basketball. body aching like hell. it's so tiring. i have 3 years to keep fit for NS.. i guess i should not give up on this. if it's too tiring i might skip a day or two.. depends. and my condition.. i still do not know whether it is serious or whether there is anything wrong with me at all. next appointment is 22nd may. going down to SGH again. second time.. for another test and x ray. cost my parents a bomb.. haish. stupid government. x ray also so expensive. what kind of medical treatment you providing for the people? so expensive. you think everyone earn 4 to 5k a month? my family is not rich but we're able to at least feed ourselves and have a bit of savings. im also trying to save money for the family. but if i find a part time job, im scared that i will be unable to find time to concentrate on my studies. this sucks man. den 6 june need go back SGH again for the medical report. this sucks.
cca.
GOING JEER INSPIRED COTT. <- figure this sentence out and i'll treat you a meal. now got two ccas, spco and spse. mr lee may be leaving at the end of the year after the dec concert. i dunno what to do. anyway, i think if mr lee quits, i will leave too. depends. see the situation first.
spse. i wanna play cello. but i don't think im up to it. i keep wanting to learn a new instrument. like piano, cello, etc. but i SUCK at reading staff scores. i guess if i cannot cope with spse i'll have to quit it and continue with spco den.
bbco. and i think the time has come for mr lee to give up on bbco after the august concert. he has already made plans to combine with hong kah north cc co. some people might not want to continue, don't want to mention who. i guess i'll join. but it'll be an entirely different atmosphere. see first bah.
i wanna get a keyboard but no money so its equal to impossible now..
i want the doctor to say that thr's nothing wrong with me when i go back on 6 june for my medical report.
i wanna be an expert in keyboard/piano but i think it's gonna take until im very old.
i feel like school is taking it's toll on me and i begin to feel that i might not be able suitable for this course.
i wanna be fit and healthy but it's gonna take me 3 years.
there is totally nothing i can do if everyone from bbco doesn't want to move to hong kah north cc.
i have great doubts about having two ccas.
how i wish i could just end this right now, but i cant waste my family's efforts and money.
how i wish the doomsday that was predicted by some wizards and the prophecy would come true on dec 2012 and the world would end just like that.
how i wish that stories and wl, david and i made up would come true one day, but i know it's impossible.
how i wish this.. how i wish that.. how i wish..
im still waiting. still waiting.
and i love mahjong.
i think only bbco knows what i mean. (:
Labels: life.
♥ Music is love.
10:47 PM Sunday, May 4, 2008